clothes can be taken off if you wanna change.
but can words be taken back after we say it ?!



seriously, i feel so sad and guilty.
mom doesn't want to forgive me too.
its been two days le. 2DAYSS!!
that day............................

i came home so tired. knock th door..
no one answered. mummy on radio so loud.
then i think she showering in toilet.
younger bro had remedial so not at home.
i knock like siao - she still cannot hear.
wannt to call house phone so she can hear but she was th one who dont let me bring HP to school. wannt to borrow neighbour but lazy. so i went down. towards mummy room window shouted MAAAA, MAAAA, MAAAA..

no one answered.

was damn bloody angry :(
so i went back up. knock knock knock.
until my knucles was red (like RED RHINO) haha
suddenly mummy shout, WHO'S THAT..
so i replied and she came to open th door.
first thing i did was ......


"wa lao. EFF lar. i so tired then kana wait outside so long"
so mummy quarelled with me lor.
So i sad.. ran with my bags and file run to my room.
cried for 45minutes.

then slap my face 3 HARD HARD times.
.........
coz i couldn't believe i did that.
after 45 min, got out from room and found mummy gone.
well, she fetched young bro.
came back then she go work.

told young bro everything then he came out with PLANNN(=
thanks bro!!
he told me sms mummy saying sorry.
then below write : i smsed with th intention of young bro wanting to play comp. so can??


but mummy never reply..
instead she call home then re-ask young bro about th comp thing.
SIANNNNN!! why? why? why must i say those hurtful words?

its been two days. she still never talk to me.

okay lar.. dont be so stubborn to not update.. hahas
me very guai de horh. lols.

today, not much things happen.
learnt map reading during geog lesson.
seriously, these days, doreen was okay.
then today, she PISSED ME OFF.
she kept disturbing darren and darren was like ?!?!
then take small bits of paper and throw to darren.. i mean like..
WHY SO CHILDISH?!
seriously lar, its effing childish k.
during physics, did test. lol? so hard
then, when teacher release for recess i asked him -- cher, yesterday you go limbang do what? he was like... how you know?? &&, you know what? he was th one who said hello to me first sia.
so i replied, you say hello to me first WHATT!! LOL cher, you got STM ah?
hahaha, short- term memory.
then he was , I OLD LE MA..
ate nasi bryani + more more rice. $1.50.
bought home-made barley.

then, DISASTER! hidayah from 1H told me josephine like dont friend her and chermaine. what th hell? they were like best friends lar. I tried helping them but no use sia.
went malay class after recess.
kept laughing with fara so teacher ask , FUNNY EHH?!?
sian. get some NAGS lor. i really pity her daughter. kana stay with her.
when back to class for maths. then english..
gosh, after school-- met up with chermaine, diyana and hidayah.
walked to canteen and we sang birthday song to simran and seri.
birthday cake = $53.10 ..
LOL. took lots pictures manz.

josephine didn't come. eeveryone sadded lurhs.
but we played with th present she gave to seri. ELMO!
hahaha(=

tomorrow is mai yuan's and zong bei's test for their KPTT.
jyjy ba!! (=

sian, dont know whatt to do. i think i find blogskin ba

hey there, damn long never update lerhs.
okays, faith -- you dont have to report everything to me rights?

back to here, later gonna meet mummy for lunch(= YEAH!
she asked me meet outside yew tee pri sch.. i was like WHY?!
she said , young bro coming also (coz he end BB)
sian lor. i thought only mummy and i.. bro EXTRA! erghh.

days pass by so fast.
he told me his problems today. wonder how i should help.
so i kept quiet.
then, he asked me what happenned to me tht day.
finally, he asked.
okay, i fell sick. 39.1degress.
hui xin and mai yuan keep asking me to go home.
daniel keep threatening to tell teacher.
in th end, he did.
at tht time, i was stunned.
HE came to my mind so i looked at him but, he was staring at the book?
nvm.
miss tang asked if i wanted to go home.
i said YES. but heart, mind and soul was NO.
i really cant bear to leave like tht.. what bout him?
suddenly, he looked at me with a O.o face.
was it a pity or a "real or fake" ??
did he really carE?
he loves, her , her , her and now her
when? when will i be able to voice it out?
should i tell him?

byes,
carmellia(=

grandmummy stay at my house today..
just now cook some stuffs for her.. oh ya, morning zongbei sms me..
i was like, wow you're awake so early..
then we said bad bad things bout _ _ _ _ _
haha.. talk from 7.04 to 8.59.. now is random talk only..

daddy's bought new badminton racket.
wanna try to use but no one's free to play..
sian.. if only today got schooll.
got folk-dancing. better than nothing lors.

grandmummy wanna go back soon.
she say she "segan" wanna stay here. =.="